Devoted to the demons inside

April 11, 2015

Dear Charlie,
I'm writing to you beacuse I think you are the only one who will understand me right now. I thank you for all of your letters. I thank you alot. I thank you of thinking me as that person who didn't try to sleep with that person at that party even though I could have.

It was so nice reading your letters. You shared evrything me. That's so sweet. I loved reading your letters. Through them I got to know about you. You. A wallflower. Me. A wallflower. Through all these letters I saw you. I heard you. I saw you have friends. I saw you falling in love. I saw you reading. I saw you crying. I know about your first kiss. I know about you. I saw you grow.

Even though, I've never met you guys but I hope that everything's fine. I hope that you are happy with your friends, with your family and with your Love. I hope that Sam is happy. I hope that Patrick is happy, too. I hope your sister's happy with his boyfriend. I hope your brother is doing good with his football. I hope that Mary Elizabeth, Peter, Craig, Bill and his girl friend, Bob...all are happy.

I remember everything about you, your first drive, your first girlfrind, you first kiss, your mix-tape, that poem, those books, those songs. Everything. And I wish for you to write me again. It's been very long. I keep re-reading your last letter, hoping that you will write again. But I sure can understand that you are trying to "participate". I'm really happy for you.

I just want you to know that through these leeters you let me into your head, into your heart, into your soul. And I'm very grateful for that. Charlie, you taught me great lessons, to which, I'll stick around for the rest of my life. "We accept the love we think we deserve", this is what I learned. I learned that if someones likes me they need to like the real me. You helped me to understand the beauty of thoughts, generousity of Love and warmth of friendship. You made me appreciate books, music and poetry and how they can really affect lives. I hope that someday you can be honest with your feelings and be who want to be. I hope I can meet you someday. I hope I can meet Sam and Patrick someday. And I hope someday we all will drive through that tunnel so that I can feel infinite. Thanks for being wonderfully charlie-esque.

Love always,

your friend

hello! Its been a veryyyy looong time. Let's say I'm finally up from my grave :D Well, Its feb 2015. I mean my last post was in Oct 2014. HAWW. Its a big shame. Its been a month into 2k15 and I still haven't posted anything on my blog. It was one of my New Year's resolution to post more but I have broken it. But I'll still TRY. I'll definitely post moooore and more!
I have been procrastinating over writing a lot these days. The chief reason is that no topic has fascinated me to a great deal and off course my School is killing me! Another reason is lack of encouragement because I hardly receive any response from you people and I believe that NO ONE actually is reading my blog, but still I put myself under the impression that out of 7 billion people (or a few more) alive on the planet there are at least 5 who are actually waiting for my words desperately! And that is the reason why I decided to write today. If you are one of this 5 lovely people, let me know please!

Now truly saying today also I don't have a topic to write about. :/ I will just update you guys of what's happening around me.
I just changed my blog's name from 'Life of a teenage girl' to 'The girl in PJs' because I thought that the former was too mainstream and boring. The new name is a bit creative. I also changed the template.
Now talking about school.....I have my annual exams in March and I am literally not at all ready for the torture. Whenever I try to study, something or the other distracts me, disturbs me or starts killing me! Ugh! I even deleted my WhatsApp aka my darling from my life so that I can study but I'm still not doing that. What the hell is happening to me? CBSE should be blamed. :/
Recently I wrote a poem which I'll share with you guys soon!
And talking about Music....I'm currently so obsessed with these songs:

The heart wants what it wants- Selena Gomez
Love runs out- One Republic
Clean- Taylor Swift
Once in a lifetime- One Direction
Boom clap- Charli xcx

And these days I'm more into being happy because there came a time in these 4 months where I felt that I'm all alone and there's nobody who likes me and I was sad...I cried!
But I was completely wrong....there are people who care for me and who love me...they know I'm talking about them...And I am so so so Thankful to them! I love you too!
I am more into this Let-it-go and be-happy kinda thing. And thanks to the person who made me realise that :)

So that's it for now and I'll talk to you later. buh bye!
-Nupur

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